Monday, March 22, 2010

It's A Great Big Beautiful Tomorrow

Spring is a time for new beginnings and also a time for letting go of the bleak winter behind you. I suppose it's fitting that Devin and I have decided to embark on a new adventure. We have decided to pursue adoption. This decision has been one coming for some time and not one that we have come to lightly. We, like many couples that battle infertility, had always kept the thought of adoption on the back burner. The plan B. Through much discussion, prayer, and guidance from our family and friends we have come to feel that adoption, for us, is our first choice.

We've decided to shift our focus from doctor's offices and medications to lawyers and agencies. For both of us, I think, a weight has been lifted. While the adoption process is a long and difficult road, the road laid before has prepared us for what lies ahead. We had both been feeling pulled to adopt but hadn't wanted to be the first one to say it's time. Of course, we will never rule out the possibility of having a child naturally. If that is part of the plan then it will happen in it's own time.

Like any life changing decision, adoption is full of questions and possibilities. Do we adopt an older child or a baby, international or domestic, boy or girl, will we even have these choices to make? Much discussion is required between us to decide many of these questions. This is, of course, just the start of the road. The application is filled out and signed. Where the process leads and how long it will take is completely up in the air. Even with all the uncertainty, the worry, the waiting that will inevitably be part of the process I can't help but feel the excitement welling up inside me.

For anyone that's interested, we will be posting updates, if and when there are things to report. And of course, there will still be blogs about other random happenings. The outpouring of support from everyone has been phenomenal and I can't begin to thank everyone for the words of encouragement. We will need you now more than ever.

Wheel's are rolling and it feels good.